I’m ALIVE! Remember at the beginning of the summer where I said I was going to blog a ton over the summer? Well clearly that didn’t happen, but I am back now after a much needed summer break.
This summer honestly wasn’t eventful enough to write a whole lot about. I worked. I read a lot of books. I got to spend a lot of time with my friends. I took a trip to Holiday World. I got my wisdom teeth out and acted like a total weirdo on the drugs.
I am in the middle of my second week of classes and now have a junior standing. Half the time I just sit back and think about how crazy fast time has gone by. It doesn’t seem like I’ve made the move from Fort Wayne to Bloomington 3 times already.
I typically love the beginning of the school year – I’m a huge nerd when it comes to new school supplies, it’s always great seeing people I haven’t seen all summer, and it feels nice to have a very established routine. A fresh start. This year has already brought so many new things! I have a new roommate (who I love), a new job (which I’m getting used to) and a new major (which I’m hoping I will stick with). I also managed to break my phone screen the first week of class and learned the hard way to really investigate where you get it fixed – I ended up paying way too much money!
The year does hold some constants though, as I am living in the same apartment with two of the same girls and continuing to lead a group of freshman girls on campus through Chi Alpha Christian Fellowship. This semester will also be the busiest and possibly most challenging one I’ve had so far, but I know if I work hard I can make it through. I’m taking 18 credit hours on top of working 6-10 hours a week at my new job and all of my Chi Alpha commitments.
Junior year has already hit me kind of hard in the sense that I already feel a lot of pressure and anxiety about the future. I turn 21 in two weeks which is just weird to me. It’s one of those ages I guess that I really start to feel old. Plus it’s my last milestone birthday until 30. I have to start seriously looking into grad schools, deciding if I am going to go right after I graduate, and get ready to apply next fall if that’s what I decide. I need to start applying for internships for this summer which is crazy because as I have learned my life tends to look very different when you fast forward to the end of the school year. I worry that I don’t have enough on my resume, that my GPA isn’t high enough, or that I’ll end up jobless come graduation. I’ve also probably felt the most homesickness I’ve felt since the first week of college freshman year. I don’t really know why this is exactly and it feels kind of weird to be feeling this way as a junior.
Despite the pressure I feel already, I also feel a lot of peace that I know could not possibly come from anywhere else than God. I really do feel like this is going to be a great year and I’m excited to share part of it with all of you who read my blog.
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